"Nothing tastes as good as losing weight feels".

The title states my new mantra! It says it all about losing weight. Today we weighed in and I lost 1.8 lbs!! I am so happy! My goal is 2 lbs a week, but I will take 1.8! I have also lost 2 inches in my waist over 1/2 in in each arm and 1 in in each leg! I find myself wanting to go to the gym twice a day, so far I havent but I probably will soon.

I am now approaching the danger zone for me! I have been 144 lbs before, but havent been able to go under that because it is my sabatoge zone. I would get there and get comfortable and allow myself to eat what I shouldnt. I dont feel that way this time! I actually am very excited that 1 week from now I will be LESS than 144 for the first time in YEARS!!!!! I guess that is my first short term goal, allowing myself to get below 144. I did get alittle below 144 when I was on Jenny Craig a couple years back, I just thought about that. But, to me that doesnt really count. I am doing it the RIGHT way this time. I am in control, I am in charge, I have to answer to myself for my decisions. No one to tell me what to eat, set up a meal plan for me, nothing! I am so proud of myself, who knew I had it in me!! LOL

I am up to a level 7 on the treadmill in the weight loss catagory. I love it!! The speed varies and the incline varies. When the speed is up I run, which I am doing more and more. A few months ago I couldnt have done it. Now I am able to do it AND talk while I do it!!

I am also now realizing how much, for me, this isnt about weight loss. It is about all of the other things in my life that have kept me from being who God wants me to be and who I want to be. I do not believe that it was just a "ahha" moment that made Carole decide that we should try this "biggest loser challange". I believe that it was God planting that idea. And atleast for me, He is along for my ride :) He is giving me strength, when I ask, not just in my struggle for what to eat, but in giving me the physical strength to work out everyday, the mental clarity to know when my food choices are bad and going to hurt me, and the mental strength to push myself when I get down, because I do. I have hormonal days just like everyone else when an icecream sundae and a blanket on the couch would make me very happy, but I don't give into it. I will one day, but just not this day :) I am so thankful that God has planted His desire in me and that I am seeing it through, with His help, of course. All the Glory to Him!

I am also getting some really awesome quality girl time in at the gym. I love to workout with Carole, but that doesnt happen as often as I would like. I got to workout with a neighbor, Karen and my really good friend Maria today. Talking while on the treadmill is great therapy!! LOL